Currently Reading Bridget Jones's Diary By Helen Fielding see related

To a New Year!

SO once again LIFE is not what I had thought it would be for Brooke for this season. Duh, right? I mean it seems as if I should know by now that my life will sporadically combust and refigure itself if left in one place for longer then 6 months, tops.

So instead of being at a university with the friends I indeed had come to acquire, I am dun dun dun ... at home for hopefully the last time.  Yes, at home with my parents and due to lack of funds and getting screwed over at Tarleton, I am going to be doing the whole community college thing for now which, although not the most desirable seems pretty wise and plausible for my station in life.

HOPES for this semester:

Go to class and make ALL A's

GET an AMAZING job ( or at least make a lot of money)

Become Healthy and super FIT by means of size 0, health nut sister and a gym membership

Try to be a less JEALOUS person of said size 0 sister as well as other marathon running sister, best friend with new boyfriend, other friends living in the decidedly non-Texas region ( especially those in the land of hippies and Liberals), specifically one going to private liberal arts school in said land where there is both the OCEAN and SNOW, As well as bronze, big haired blondes with sweet dispositions.

(really must work super hard on Jealousy bit)

Make NEW buddies to work-out, hang-out, study and party with... well at least occasionally picnic and drive to fun places with.

Maintain inner-poise and optimism whilst having awkward conversations, sweating profusely at the gym as dying for lack of oxygen and having raging, emotionally charged fits of envy when job is not fun after night of bad tips.

YES this is going to be an interesting few months here in Tejas. I expect it will be a thoroughly  infamous time of my E true hollywood Biography story in a few ( hopefully short) decades ;)  On a serious note, my life truly could be reorganized, with goals and motivation of steel emerging as could abs and buns of same steel, ( both of which the buns and the motivation were just lying dormant to b brought out from the fire that is living with your family, with few friends in the suburbs) YES- these are all completely plausible and will in fact occur. 

Starting... NOW

Currently Listening Elton John - Greatest Hits 1970-2002 By Elton John Tiny Dancer see related

Texas, Tattoos and Textbooks

Here's the run-down: Brooke is currently at Tarleton State and is attending college with the rest of the late teens and early 20-somethings of America who aren't spending thier days as missionaries, hippies or intercessors ( big sigh) but that is okay for now at least because I AM LEARNING SO MUCH

I knew being around people and in a scheduled environment of sorts would be good for me , well lo and behold it is! Its also difficult because I'm not really sure what the long-term purpose of my stint here is but have commited to finishing out the year which means: keeping my average up for my scholarship, getting involved around this joint and building relationships.

Oh if only everyone were willing to set up meal-time meetings to specifically discuss certain topics or areas of thier life... but this is college time to REBEL, shake up the STANDARDS, go to great PARTIES...right?

Just KIDDING!  Really though I know that by being in different situations already Iv'e had to confront my beliefs and boundries but that has only forced me to define and strenghten what I am for and reason it out in my mind.

Yet some times it is time to step out and do something your parents may not have totally expected like my tattoo which although Iv'e been telling them I was going to get it  for MONTHS they still were at the least SHOCKED but eh they still love me and are coming around.

Speaking of coming around: relationships are hard! egh I mean who new that being friends with a boy could be so difficult for a really long time... but whatever the term " things will work themselves out" may not be applicable but at least there is always hope for either a good resolve or excellent closure- Amen

Yes there is much more and maybe later when my mind is more open and not swimming with new names, assignments and how I HAVE GOT TO STOP TURNING MY ALARM OFF IN THE MORNING!

I will delve into other thought but for now I need to eat something and do some reading before ... Algebra.

Currently Listening Insomniac By Enrique Iglesias Do You Know (ping pong song) see related

State

Currently Reading Men Are from Mars, Women Are from Venus By John Gray see related

Nineteen

Well I'm temporarily at home and will be helping my mom out with her furniture junk for the next 5 days... But I did enjoy my week in NYC ( outside of the 3 canceled flights and stranded night in Memphis.. word to the wise  DO NOT fly with Northwest Airline for real)  anyhow I loved being around my little niece and big sister a lot   and it is always so hard to leave them on the street corner as my cab pulls away...

I did turn 19 on the 21st and for the 2nd year in a row have not unwrapped a single gift or blown out candles on my birthday but did get to have my first ice cream cake with candles 2 days later and as for presents I really can guilt trip my parents about it now.... ( note: I don't ask or a  lot or really want anything- I told my mom I wanted this detox thing  that was it) but in all honesty there was a really good reason for all this . My step dad's dad had his funeral on my birthday - He passed away on Tuesday but He was a good man and lived a  long life - He was in the war as well as a fireman turned farmer in his most recent years- He wore his body out just like how it is meant to be he raised 3 sons and loved the Lord. So I guess its okay then this year because a funeral is a hard thing and losing your dad even worse even if you knew it was coming for months its still a shock...

Yet there is much to look foward to in still living now - There are places to see and books to read... and that is why I must now leave before my Ma throws a conniption.

Oh but I did get to try new things while in the city such as duck, fresh goat cheese, a napoleon, and raw baby octopus - ( we had a sushi picnic in Central park) -

Oh and little Madeleine hugged me for real for the first time she was just sitting there and looked at me then reached her little arms out and hugged me... oh so adorable!

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